So, guess what?
I quit my job today.
I decided that it was just not a good fit for me. It was a really difficult decision because I felt stupid and embarrassed to go in and quit my job after only 3 days but I knew it was the right thing to do. I also felt bad because C is unemployed and I didn't want to be putting us in a worse position by quitting and having us both not be working. I felt bad that I might be stressing C out more, but he fully supports my decision and knows that we will figure this all out and that God will continue to provide for us.
I think this has been a good learning experience for me. I purposely didn't apply for hospice when I first moved out here. I thought I needed/wanted to focus strictly on mental health issues but what I realized was that I already do that through hospice work! I also really like the broader scope of hospice social work. I have always felt that end of life work is sacred and I have really missed it during this last month. I knew I would eventually get back into hospice work in one way or another, and this experience has just made it that much clearer that that's where I am supposed to be. I really do love the work.
I have applied to various hospices and will keep you updated.
C and I both have a couple job leads.. we hope to update with good news later this week.
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Dearest Autumn,
ReplyDeleteThose jobs which point us in the direction of our true vocations are so valuable. I worked at the IRS a total of six weeks one spring. Four of those weeks were training, I felt guilty about that, but knew it was not the job for me. Even though it was just a job to earn money for Europe, I knew I needed something more active, so went back to waitressing. You have so much to offer the dying and their families. I know God does have the perfect jobs out there for you and Chris. I love you honey and miss you. I think I have the crappy flu you all had. I was sicker than a dog last Wed. night, fever of 101, achy, felt like my legs were being pulled out by the hip sockets. I felt better Thursday, though still tired and even better Friday. Saturday I had signed up to do a 10K walk with some of my walk team buddies. I thought I could just go slow, as it was I felt great and finished in 95 minutes-almost a 15 minute mile. I really didn't feel I was pushing myself or anything.I think I am dealing with the aftermath now though. On top of that probably dealing with allergies too-aak! Anyway, I am getting caught up on my email as I lay in bed with my laptop! Again, I love you sweetie and hope to talk to you soon. Candy